My Melancholy Strain!!!

23rd of May, 2008 will always be one of the most memorable days in my life.

Its not that I have been praised, won a competition, had free food or got a gift... I LOST!!!

I lost, not in a contest, not in Life, I lost FRIENDS!!!

Day began perfectly well although I sensed some vibes, which you bet weren't positive. Early in the day I was busy visiting Corporate houses, pleading for sponsorship and eventually shown the door on more than one occasion (and that's nothing new), it was however the evening that brought to an end an entire chapter of my "LIFE".

I felt like aaawww... the realization hasn't still sunken in, but one things for sure "RECHARGE BOYS WILL BE ... ....". (No Boasting). Yayaya, I knew it was scheduled to be, something that was quite inevitable, and I was kinda prepared for it, but you never know when the moment arrives you are left cold. My friend, my inspiration, my partner, my better half(no puns intended), walked out of the studio for the last time. The months, the days, the hours, the links, leaving everything behind, looking forward to a brighter future with gloomy eyes, he walked out, walked out with a song from Life.. In a Metro, "O Meri Jaan......" I wish him every single bit of luck in his life, however "Dil Khudgarz Hai", I wanted him to stay back.

Woh kehte hain na "Har Kisiko Mukammal Jahan Nahi Milta, Kisiko Zameen To Kisiko Aasmaan Nahi Milta", I am left, left back, left alone, left... may be for a long long time. And with all this emotions flying in and virtually out of us, there rings my phone and I get another news, someone is leaving me again. Hahaha, Ohh.. the Irony of Life, it always cuts you with a double edged sword. Only this time, it was someone who I had really cherished, in these few years of my acquaintance with her, I had realised so many things about me. The first outing, the first biking experience, the first Late Night Dinner, the first of so many firsts. The teekha experience of Golgappas, the combined taste of Winning, The sound of Rockets flying by in Diwali, and My absence at the Holi, gone.., gone as they say with the Wind, My Scarlett O'Hara. With Wind Chimes wishing her luck I walked "A lonely street" down home.


The Day was inching towards a stage where finally God puts down the curtains and says pack-up, but hey someone, from somewhere I don't know again planned of leaving me.. hahaha, and you thought the day was called off. Now this person was special, not that the earlier weren't, but this was someone I still don't know but the feeling of being left alone was even more stronger now, I wonder what shall it be when I finally get to know that Someone, I would be .............., just like these dots "BLANK". There was some respite however at around midnight that maybe this last one will stay back, but again "Happy Endings Are Just In Movies", I get a mail in the morning and by now you must have guessed its contents. I would still highlight a few lines from the mail :

"Sum1 has very wisely said that we mustn't speak nonsense always especially with the intention of hurting sum1. Coz words can turn into reality and then its God's turn to play games with us."

Surely God has played, and here I am, sitting in front of a machine and trying to share Human Emotions, its sad, but how can I cry? Men aren't supposed to be that expressive, however I remember my "Someone's" words "Even Heroes Have The Right To Bleed", I ain't bleeding nor will I cry, I will live as I have always, wishing against wishes, dreaming against prayers, I will live for that Tomorrow, and its rightly said "The Show Must Go On", and it will. Only this time the jester isn't pleased with the String Holder.

Now go and wipe out those feelings and read something interesting and less boring. C Ya...

My Nocturnal Insomnia!!!

I guess BLOGGING ain't so easy. Its been only 10 days and I have already bunked an article around 3 times. I suppose my college habits are still not out of me yet.

Its not that I haven't had time off late, Its just that although I am not asleep, I still cant have my brain working even with my eyes open. The line that I just wrote epitomizes my explanation. Ya ya ya, I know this is just a repercussion of sitting and doing nothing, although I guess now-a-days sleep has eluded me (at least in the Nocturnal Period), coz I sleep like a Horse till afternoon. But you never know this could well be the initial stages.

Off late there has been a shift in my Biological Clock, I seem to do well with the American Time, always late. My day starts off particularly well at around 1 PM, this is when my Gall Bladders finally surrender to the Internal Pressure(bad one). Once awake I have that Long, Red, and Bushy at one end thing, in my mouth for half an hour, by the way, I call it a toothbrush (another one), pouring all my attention to the news paper( hey I got to stop these "one's"). My body sucks in water only after that and drenches itself in Hydrogen Hydroxide(wonder why people call it plain water, when it has got such a fancy name, like a chihuahua) at around 2:15 - 2:30 PM. Then my mother has been very kind to feed me lunch after 3 PM, and thus I get my first share of Vitamins, Proteins, Carbohydrates, Fats(lots of it), and what not?
If I feel the occasional urge to check my mails after an in-time lunch, then I could not resist the temptation of Pairing myself with my laptop for the next two hours, and if thats not the case, an afternoon nap on the couch, with eyes wide open and sweat pouring from my forehead does the trick of Digesting my solid intake.

Soon after the clock strikes 5 PM and I have to rush to the studio to get the People RECHARGED(that's the name of my Radio Show, except the -ED part), this is the best time coz I get to have my First of Many Smokes for the Day. And after that its just ON - AIR life. Sadly the two hour period comes to an end so fast that I dont even get time to think and remember about what I do then, else I could have easily written something about it, neva mind may be some time else. Right, now where was I, Mating, oops did I say Mating, I mean Waiting for the Auto Rickshaw to drive my 80 kgs self, (P.S. I m trying to start exercising) back home. Once I reach my destination it has to be a quick watch on the IPL score and then the place where I am writing this Stuff. And this is when I think of what I have done in the entire day, and finally zero-in on a big ZERO. And its only because of some "ANGELIC INTERVENTION", that I have before I finish off my day, I feel like it was worth living a day that just passed on. About the Intervention, let the time come...

It has never ever happened in my life that I saw the Sunrise, but thanks to my new schedule and Insomnia, during the nights, that I get to see the SUN God, slowly getting out of His Linens in the early morning, just before I get to sleep.

Strangely, I have started believing in the saying, "Even The Darkest Of Clouds Have Got A Silver Lining". You for sure think about your sleepless nights, by the time I enjoy a Quick Nap and C Ya.

My Meaning!!!

I know its kinda two days later that my post has arrived.
However as they say, "Better Late Than Never". Here is something I found out at a Website about my Name.

What Sharthak Means?

You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do. You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something. You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense. You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun. You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life. You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home. You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble. You are a seeker of knowledge, and you have learned many things in your life. You are also a keeper of knowledge - meaning you don't spill secrets or spread gossip. People sometimes think you're snobby or aloof, but you're just too deep in thought to pay attention to them.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Do Give It a Shot. C Ya with Ur New Meaning.

My Sporting Spirit!!!

Money, Glamor, Girls, Entertainment, Stars, and More Money. Ten years from now, these were the terms that you would only in your fantasies or in your most wildest dreams associate with our Religion, and what better it would be than Cricket. For a country, which eventually lost its spot in the 1950 Olympics, in Football for the Non-Availability of shoes to wear, for playing the sport, we really have come of age in witnessing and hosting the biggest Cricketainment show on Earth, The INDIAN PREMIER LEAGUE.

Huge Stadiums, Short Boundaries, Shorter Clothes on Girls, Big Players, Full Throttle Music, Huge Rewards and Front Page News Headlines, this is not an everyday story for any Indian. April 18th, 2008, is a day that has got its name fixated in Platinum Alphabets on the very face of World History. A day that finally brought to an end a long debacle, a great debate, on which is THE sport of India - Hockey or Cricket. The answer is obviously taken. For a country that turns a deaf ear to the news covering their National Sport not getting its Olympic Berth, and still scribbling through the news papers on the next morning to get the pin point details of the late night match that they eventually missed because they came home late because of the Traffic again due to Sports Voyeurs(Pun Intended) returning altogether at the same time is something that has really made many a heads turn.

So what is the reason behind all this cacophony? As they say "Yeh Paisa Bolta Hai" its all about the money involved. And the best part is that everyone gets benefited. Its actually a cycle of events, look at the process:
1. Players get Money from Owners, they are Happy and Popular(Get a Couple of Ad Shoots as well, its Bonus).
2. Owners get Money from Sponsors, Endorsements, and Television Rights, Accessories, etc., they are Esctatic.
3. BCCI gets its Money from Tickets Sold & Media Rights, it is Rich(Wonder what it does with all that money).
4. The Media Channel gets lots of Advertisements, which spells out as lot of Bucks.
5. The Endorsers and Advertisers get a much higher Customer Base, they are Ready for More.

You must be wondering then where does this Entity "I, Me, We, Us" lie in here. The Answer is pretty obvious, we buy from the advertisers, we pay Money to them; we purchase tickets of Matches, we pay Money to them; we shop for Cool Accessories(As a Kolkata KnightRiders T-Shirt, which I Proudly Own); we pay Money to them.

Strange isn't it, Its said "Life Goes In Full Circles", however what we find here is that its basically OUR MONEY thats doing the rounds.

So next time you get to watch an IPL math think thats its actually for you that the entire Cricketainment is in its full flow. And if you do come across an IPL Player or even Shahrukh Khan or better the bubbly Preity Zinta, tell them that after all it was your Money, that helped them win matches and most probably even in the near future.

Don't forget the Importance of your contributions, so keep your chin high and C YA...

My Musical Hummings!!!

If its asked, which is the only Universal Language of the World, then I am quite sure that the answer thats ready to usher from everyone of ours throat is MUSIC indeed. Classically the development of music among humans must have taken place against the backdrop of natural sounds such as birdsong and the sounds other animals use to communicate. However the interpolation of music now-a-days has undergone a sea change. The chirping of birds have been reduced to the humming of electric synthesizers and the animalistic growls feel depressing when compared to the roar of drums, perhaps this is what man has turned itself into, ARTIFICIAL.

Music to me has been a perennial source of motivation, care, romance and to a certain extent a partner, who although doesn't share her presence with me, however is still so much inside me that its hard for even air to pass through my breath, without touching her brows or making her sharing my warmth. And to add to these tones ordered horizontally as melodies, and vertically as harmonies, we have some ever remembered Lyrics.

Words as they say, are all we have to take anyone's heart away, and when words compliment music, it breaks all language barriers and pleases the soul within. As far as my personal preference goes I have always loved soft rock, country, blues and yes Kishore Kumar. Naturally an addiction to these gives you an altogether new meaning for existence, however in my case have served me well in bringing me close to my own personality, my likes and dislikes, has helped me choose the right people in my life, have restored tranquility and helped me deal with loneliness.

I am pretty sure that each one of us has got their own interpolation of this widely used term, what I will like, is you, trying to figure out your passion and personify it into a living identity and then just see how simple a form life transforms into with an inanimate companion.

For me Music has been my most sought after friend, guide and yes a omnipresent companion, rather "Something in which I found Someone", hope you too find out something for yourself. Keep Looking and C Ya Soon...

My Second Life!!!

I remember of sharing with u that I am currently enjoying my life being an RJ as well, u know as in Radio Jockey. There has been a lot of if's and but's that I have thought before joining this trade... naaa.. I am just kidding as soon as I got the job I was all warmed up and ready to get going. I always knew that my future for sure didn't have me sitting infront of a computer and writing programs or increasing there efficiency, though I still spend a lot of time infront of my computer doing far more interesting jobs (certainly I am :)).

More ever me getting into this creative field is something that stars have to be thanked for. I absolutely had no intention and it was quite a co incidence for me to sit for the interview in the first place. I want to elaborate on that, but decide to keep it for sometime else. There has been such a deep impact on my life ever since I started up as an RJ, that I still am not able to think me passing over it in the near future. But for the time being I am enjoying every bit of it.

There have been so many youngsters that have asked me about the fundamentals of being an RJ that now I decide to help some of you on this regard. To start up with there is basically so little of theory that is there for being an RJ, that it is often very very difficult to teach, and I just think about the institutes who offer professional courses in this field and think that they act as great seducers to tempt the newbies to take up their course. But "Straight from the Horse's Mouth", I would tell you one thing that its absolutely unnecessary to waste your time in falling for these things. If you ask me there are three things that is absolutely necessary for one trying to get into this field :

1. A passion for speaking may be just chit chat or speeches or debates, but has to be pretty well reasoned.

2. Common Sense and an Idea of what is going on in the world in and around.

3. And most importantly interaction with the masses, because 90% of stations across India and somewhat more in other Countries deal with Listener Interaction.

If you lack in any one of these fields, brother, start improving right away, or better start looking somewhere else. But if you are really average in all three of them, the goal is mostly achieved and now you can start honing your skills by having some practical knowledge.

I found some information about the radio base in India from this site and thought that it would help you, do have a look : http://www.asiawaves.net/ .

Hey how did I forget it was a Sunday right, so I hope you Guys had an awesome Sunday, now buckle up coz its all a new week from tommorow and the as they say "The Show Must Go On".

C ya soon...

Patience Has Departed Me!!!

I thought of coming back only tomorrow, but man, blogging is addictive...

Well as I have officially introduced you to my current state as of "Lost In Translation" types, I thought it wise to add some activities that keep me engaged now-a-days.

To start with, I have devoted a lot of time in thinking about my future which though isn't quite clear as it seems, however keeps me motivated to dwell in my life size figure.

No, before that I think I should write something about my past( some reminisces again). I, 22 yrs as of now, 175 cms in height and 84kgs of Load on Mother Earth, have completed my B.Tech on the "Fateful Day" this year from a lesser known Institute though namely, Kalinga Institute Of Industrial Technology, Bhubaneswar, Orissa, India (complete postal address :) ), and prior to that eventually have cleared Secondary Education from Venkateswar English Medium School, prior to completing my Senior Secondary from DAV Public School, CSPur, Bhubaneswar.

Though I was always average in studies, it was activities other than academics that carried me on and helped me make my mark. May it be Debates, Quizzes(which I sometimes won, thanks to my partners), Singing and Music (not hardcore but soft and soothing ones). Have had my share of luck in winning some National Level Competitions. Interestingly, I even have tried my hands in some sports, in which I have more often than not, failed miserably.

But this will always remain a benchmark for me to achieve as I have always wanted to have expertise in atleast one sport and learn a dance genre(P.S. Wedding Dance has already won me many accolades, but now I am determined in handling some more professional Dance Form). Now with I having finished a major part of my education am looking forward to start running after my aspirations and letting the future have what's in store.

Hey, I suppose its enough about me for now, too many things will shorten any one's interest, its good if I reveal myself in bits and pieces. And after all this I don't suppose it would be a great idea to continue any further about the activities I was mentioning earlier. I will take a halt for this post, but will enclose my picture and video for the Day. Hope you like it, no I know you will like it...

Njoy and see ya soon....

Target Initialised!!!

Here I am. Just two days after that "Fateful Day". The day when all my world has sunk into another realm altogether. The day when I was introduced officially into the so called "RAT-RACE". The day which made me realise the vastness of the outside world. And although the realization hasn't quite sunk in, one thing is for sure, its not late that I would find myself prowling over reminisces of that Phase of my life which has so vividly come to an end.

College, as they say is the highest seat of learning for any individual. Not only the academics, 'coz I absolutely believe that One should not allow "One's School or College Interfere with One's Education", however I seriously have learnt that life teaches you so many things in College. There are so many "First Times", as in First Bunk, First Love(Sadly I didn't fall in that category), First Job, First Smoke, First Glass of Togetherness, all in these limited years that makes this part of life the most memorable.

Well, like the song goes "Closing Time... Every New Beginning Comes From Some Other Beginnings End", I suppose even if that "Fateful Day" has passed, and I am sad; its something that I really wanted to happen, as now I can sit back and remember what's gone and what's in store next. Hope the new beginning starts from where I left this One.

8th May 2008 will always be remembered as a Day when I Grew Up, and Started Realizing Sharthak, in person.